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A bit of Earth, she wants a little bit of earth she'll plant some seeds, the seeds will grow, the flowers bloom, but is their bounty what she needs, how can she chance, to love a little bit of Earth does she not know, the Earth is old, and doesn't care if one small girl wants things to grow. She'll grow to love, the tender roses, lilies fair the iris tall, and then in fall, her bit of earth will freeze and kill them all
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014 [12 14 11]
I've been playing with the idea of trying my hand at sewing. Nothing too complicated, just blankets of some sort. I just picture some beautiful blankets in my mind's eye and have been really wanting to make them. I don't expect my endeavors to result in flawless designs and products but I know I'll have fun trying. I might need some help and advice on where to start and maybe some techniques on how to do it with my wand if I need to. I don't know how hard this is going to be but I believe in always trying something new and challenging myself to learn. I feel like there is so much that I've missed out on and continue to miss out on so I try to do new things and have new adventures.

013 [10 05 11]
Sometimes I'm pretty positive I can feel the heartbeat of the earth itself. It's nice just to lay quiet in my garden and listen to life as the world slips into hibernation for the winter. The cold reminds me I'm alive and I get to snuggle with a blanket, which is a favorite thing of mine.

012 [08 31 11]
I'm looking forward to the change in seasons. There's something magical about it, isn't there. I can't wait to hear the crackle of the leaves beneath my feet and the smell of them on the air.

What is your favorite time of year?

011 [07 01 11]
It's been raining so much lately but I still enjoy my walks home. I really don't mind getting wet and it's really so refreshing. The feel of the rain on my skin and the sounds that it makes is thrilling and enchanting. I just wish I could see it, I'll bet it's as beautiful as it smells.

My gardens are loving the rain too! They've just exploded with new growth and I've been so busy trimming and pruning I almost can't keep up! Exciting and certainly something to smile about.

[06 27 11]
TWO YEARS LATER...
Dinas Powys, Cardiff, Wales
2006

010 [02 03 11]
Good news! My bunny was found and he's happily at home with Ms. Darling! She was really worried sick without him and she's clearly so happy to have him back. It is practically a beautiful love story, and just in time for Valentine's Day too.

Speaking of Valentine's Day, we've gotten a load of orders at work and I'm happily working away on them in order for them to arrive exactly when they are supposed to. Thank Merlin for magic, I can keep the flowers fresh for so long and get a lot done early so as not to overload me and my employees on the day of!

If anyone is looking for flowers for Valentine's Day, it isn't late at all! Send your orders to Petals on the Way in Cardiff. I can guarantee that our flowers will last all month and arrive without damage. Flowers are a great way to express you care about someone, friends and family love to receive them just as much as your love. So if you don't have someone this Valentine's Day, then share your love with someone you really care about!

009 [01 24 11]
[Private to self]

I feel so lonely. I just don't know what to do anymore. I think I've managed to not make anyone wonder or worry at work. They always say you should leave your personal problems at home when you go to work. Sometimes it feels like things are too consuming to be able to leave things at home and go to work.

I hope he's happy.

[/Private]

I'm having terrible luck with losing things. I'm usually very careful with where I put things so I can find them. I have things organized and put in specific places or arrangements so I can know what is what, but recently I've really been misplacing things.

I'm so worried because I can't find Topsy. I had the rabbits outside but when I called them only Ms. Darling came back. I'm worried that something terrible happened to him. I called him for so long and nothing, so I've been leaving so food for him outside and I call for him everyday, just in case. I wish I could search better, but I have to go into work everyday and I just can't. I think Ms. Darling is sick from missing him. I think I know how she feels. It's easy to understand her pain. If I wasn't blind this wouldn't have happen

008 [12 20 10]
[Private to self]

I should have known. Why would I not think about that? It's been years and I should have thought about it. He's married now. He was engaged but didn't tell me and I thought, like a stupid little girl, that we could just pick up where we left off. But where did we leave off? I know I've had feelings for him for a long time, even during those years of living in America and not seeing or speaking with him at all. How can you be in love with someone when they don't love you in return? It's not fair and it shouldn't even be possible. He probably has always seen me as the little girl he remembered while in school. That's all I was then anyway, just a little girl that needed help with her studies, but that didn't stop me from falling for him. If it were just a school crush then shouldn't I be over it now? I'm not and now there is nothing I can do. Nothing.

I could barely stop myself from crying in my seat. I didn't know anyone there did I? Why did I even stop myself? No one knew me and wouldn't have cared why a strange girl was crying. But then I would have been an interruption somehow and Cliff would find out. I wouldn't want to ruin his wedding in any way. I couldn't ever do that. He deserves to be happy because he's such a wonderful person. Why can't I just be happy for him and let it go at that?

Was it a trick all along? He got teased for spending time with me in school, maybe it was to prove something?

I don't like feeling like this. I can't think of him the same way anymore, I just can't let myself. I don't even know if I'll be able to act friendly to him. He doesn't deserve me to be miserable and not speak to him like I have been. That wouldn't be fair to him. I just... I just need to go to bed and let myself cry. I feel so alone.

[/private]

I miss my parents.

007 [12 14 10]
I use Accio often enough but there are some things I'm worried about using it on. What about something that the same thing but in a pile? Like rabbit poo? I think one of my bunnies went to the bathroom in my laundry area and I can't find it! I thought about using that particular spell but I don't know if I'm going to be pelted by it...

006 [11 29 10]
I hope everyone that was victim to the attack that happened in London is staying as safe as they can right now. I heard Mungo's was very busy and I tried to send flowers as a courtesy for each room to have one but it was hard keeping up with the amount needed. I did my best and I hope every who went through Mungo's was able to receive some. If you didn't then I'm terribly sorry and hope that you're all doing well.

I was in London at the time of the attack but in an entirely different area. I was looking at a shop for sale that I'd been told about and I think I might consider it. It's a big step and I have to think carefully about it. I've been doing a lot of that, thinking, and I will certainly need to hire more people if I take this step. I'll need someone who can manage the store while I'm away at the other. There's really a lot involved.



Topsy and Ms. Darling have grown, though they're still small little bunnies, just not as small as when I first got them. Topsy is a little clumsy and she tends to make messes when I feed them and Ms. Darling is an angel and really loves following me everywhere I go. I think they've learned to come when I call their names but I'm not sure if rabbits can actually learn their names.

005 [10 30 10]
The change in seasons can definitely be felt on the air. One of the best things about a change in season is the shipments of seasonal flowers! I've been having a lot of fun putting together arrangements with autumn themes. I've even dabbed in Halloween this year and have actually had several orders for the holiday themed bouquets. I got to play with little jack-o-lantern accents and bats and spiders too! It's really be a lot of fun and I think we'll definitely be doing again next year.

On that note, we are having a marked down sale on the Halloween floral arrangements. Petals on the Way, we're located in Cadriff Wales and I'm hoping to get a location in London soon! I'm actually going out there tomorrow to visit some available shoppes. It's really exciting that business has been doing so well that we can expand.

004 [09 20 10]
I was able to send lots of flower arrangements to the victims who were sent to St. Mungo's. It was a lot of work but I had some help. Thank you for helping me Lavender! You were fantastic. It felt wonderful to be able to do something for the survivors of that attack. I hope that it helped to brighten their day even a little bit.

I was also able to reunite with a very good friend from school recently. It was so wonderful to be with him again and it really just made me so happy. I showed him the gardens I've been working on, it's so nice when someone appreciates the work you put into something and I really do love putting myself into my gardens. It's just one of those things that you can spend hours doing and time will fly by so quickly but you're enjoying yourself so it doesn't matter. I'm very glad to have been able to catch up with Cliff. I'd like to get some time with him again when he has the time in his schedule.

003 [08 24 10]
So horrible. It's so close to home too. I hate that business will likely pick up because of this. I wish I could do something to help. Maybe I can donate flower arrangements. All those innocent people, why do they have to hurt people who don't get mixed up with them? They got hurt for just living close to someone who was dealing with the devil.

I was worried before, but now I'm scared. So close.

002 [08 16 10]
I am working on a new design to be used for a woodland themed wedding. They came to me first to ask me to put something together for them. I'm so excited and inspired by it! I want it to be simple and natural but also lovely. I have my materials organized and have written a list of things I would like to use. It's always a pleasure when I get asked to do a wedding, not only does it put my work out there and earn more money than simple day to day sells, it also gives me an excuse to try something new and be creative. It also shows that people can have faith in me despite my blindness.

I had the most wonderful birthday present a few days ago. I found that a small family of rabbits had made a home near my house. I'd taken my lunch out into the trees nearby and as I sat there I could hear them. I left some of my vegetables near where I thought their home was and went back later and they were gone! So I've been leaving them a few gifts each day and today I was able to get one to come close enough for me to touch. He ate from my hand and I pet his head before he hurried away. I'm so happy today.

001 [07 30 10]
What a beautiful day. I can feel the energy in air and I think it promises to be wonderful. I hope everyone will find some way to enjoy it, you can't let days like these pass you by. I think I'll go for a walk on my lunch.

[12 07 07]
( She Wants A Little Bit Of Earth, She’ll Plant Some Seeds. )

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